no 'I' in team

This past week has been sort of odd. We are pretty busy, so finding time and an internet cafe that works to blog has been difficult. Let me just start off by saying how amazed and humbled I am by my team. I wish, at their age, I had a tenth of the spiritual maturity and commitment that they have. Our schedules are full, but yet we are all kind of having a hard time with the actual productivity of our time here...we just don't want to waste time being lazy. They (Jeremy's idea) thought it would be good if we met every morning at 7am to have a team time to meditate on God's word. I had resolved to do this on my own, but I am impressed that they thought of it as a wise group activity. There have been a couple of rough mornings (most of you know that I am not what you would call a "morning person"), but I love starting the day connecting with Jesus and the team. I am fairly independent, so this is teaching me a lot about the humility and not trying to do everything on my own. So, with that, team stuff has been difficult for me. For about 2 days or so, I felt completely disconnected from the rest of the team. I don't know if it is an age thing, or the fact that I feel like they connect better because a couple of them already knew one another, or if it is just me being petty and stupid....I am guessing the later is main reason. This past week, I have been missing all my wonderful friends and family at home and not feeling connected here, so I have been doing a lot of stuff alone.....kind of moping, I guess. Last night we went to a "revival" meeting and all though there were not many people there and the worship was not what I would have chosen or the style of 'preaching' from the podium was not my favorite style...I really felt the Lord for the small time we were there. I realized how prideful and petty I was being. It is even more humbling that I am the oldest and probably the one having the hardest time with the team aspect. I asked the Lord's forgiveness and I have been choosing a better attitude. Let me just say that today was a great day!! I apologized to the team for being a poop this morning and I feel like it is back to being easy again. Why am I so silly and stubborn! *sigh* This entry might lead you to believe that I am having a hard time here and I am really not. I feel at ease here. I love what we are doing and what our days are filed with. The most difficult thing is with affairs of the heart. I love you all so much and I hate being away from you. I hate that I am missing birthday parties of adorable 2 year old boys, birthdays of parents, wedding planning, wedding showers, new apartments and the hard things as well. E-mail is great and I think I would be a wreck without it. Thank you so much to all of you who have been posting or e-mailing me. It means the world to me and I would not make it without them!