beaches

. I have spent the past few days relaxing on the beach and processing some aspects of our time here. I feel like I just got back from a mini-vacation, it was lovely! The beaches here are so beautiful and every sunset/sunrise is like watching a masterpiece be worked right in front of your very eyes. The crystal blue waters, lush green palm trees, flowers of many colors and blue skies all around. The sound of the waves beating against the shore. It was a rhythm that my soul needed. I needed to feel the Lord like that and to hear Him. This retreat was a lot about how we have seen our time here and questions to be thinking about as we re-enter our lives back home. Home has seemed to far away for so long that it feels impossible to try to put myself back in that life. I have been asked many time lately how I am doing with the prospects of coming home. When asked this question, every emotion imaginable runs through my heart. I am looking forward to being HOME, to seeing my family and all of you that I love so dearly. But there are a lot of questions that are unanswered for me right now. I dearly love my friends here and I love living among and being among the poor. I have to figure out what that will look like at home. Also there is the impending decision about a job. That is not so exciting or inviting to come home to but I trust the Lord that it will work out. This retreat was really good for me because it made me think about howI have changed and then also think about all that has changed at home. There are some exciting thing that I am coming home to and some not to exciting things. I hope that I have grown and changed from my time here, so it will be a new experience to be home among the changes being the new me. I am coming off of these few days away with an excitement to end this last week well and enjoy the time here but also I am excited to take home what I have learned and who I have become. I just hope you all have patience with me as I figure out what all this means.